Another year has gone by and I am somehow working in a hostile environment. I never liked working in a drilling rig simply because it’s so dangerous and there’s a lot of injuries associated with the work. But what do you do when life deals you these things; you have to make the best out of it, you have to keep moving and dance, dance, dance. Dance so that the world keeps moving, dance so that you won’t stay in one place, dance so that you’ll end up in a better place.
That’s exactly what I did, I pulled myself up and danced. The first few days was the toughest. New work scope, no prior experience as an engineer, night shift and I was emotionally not at my best. The thing about working graveyard shift is that everyone is asleep when you’re up so it’s difficult to not feel alone at times. There were times when I just lay down in bed and broke down, don’t feel bad for me because I found out that this is what I needed; an outlet for my emotions and feelings. It gets less painful with every-time I let it out, feelings doesn’t change but once all the emotions are out then things become clearer and you get to see the bigger picture. Wasn’t easy working at a new role while dealing with my emotions but I started dancing and I didn’t tripped.
Tattoos was a big conversation starter for me. People on the rig was generally surprised when they found out that this young office guy has quite a bit of tattoos on his body. There’s this guy who told me that one of his friend saw this guy walking around with a stairs tattoo and proceeded to take a photo of my tattoo and sent it to his friend. Lo and behold, Brunei is very small and turns out the friend really did saw me. A lot of people tried asking me what are the meaning of my tattoos but if you know me; I prefer to keep the meaning to myself. There’s only one person who knew the meanings of my tattoos (other than myself, ofcourse) that’s how intimate the meanings of my tattoos means to me.
Can you believe it that I found a significant mistake on my first week working as an engineer? It was overlooked by everyone but when I did the work, it was pretty concerning that this was overlooked. I guess there was a reason why I ended up working on that remote location. I don’t wanna think too much about it because I am not in the country right now. I am currently crashing on my friend’s couch right next to a rabbit cage. What a leech eh? It’s fine, I’ll return the favor one day. I am honestly grateful that I have friends like these.
I danced pretty well so far and I intend to keep on doing just that. Though my life took an unexpected turn; it remains beautiful. I said to myself back then; maybe the things that I’ve lost, they will come back when the time is right. But now, I’ll keep dancing.
Until then,
Exploration Cycles 