Table for Two

My worst fear ever other than death is losing that one person. In fact, it is not the fear of losing that one person; rather the fear of never finding someone who can love you like she did, understand you like she did, comfort you like she did… there can never be another one. I fell in love and the love is the kind of love where you felt that she is your soulmate. I fell in love with the most beautiful girl who despite had showed me her pains and struggles, made me fell even deeper.

Whenever I go out, it’s always a table for two. Even when I’m alone, it’s a table for two as I carry your heart in my heart. You made my heart felt happy, sad, joyful, pain, passionate, loving, loved and most of all, alive. I have never loved anyone as much as I have and the fact that I am fearlessly writing my feelings in a public space like never before speaks volume about the love that I have. I still think about everyday, even back then when we were apart; you’ve never left. When I dream, I dreamt that I was in love and my dream is a reality. You made me want to be better, you made me have a sense of direction, you gave me a ray of sunshine in this otherwise bleak and confusing world.

When I love
I feel that I am the king of time
I possess the earth and everything on it
and ride into the sun upon my horse.

When I love
I become liquid light
invisible to the eye
and the poems in my notebooks
become fields of mimosa and poppy.

When I love
the water gushes from my fingers
grass grows on my tongue
when I love
I become time outside all time.

When I love a woman
all the trees
run barefoot toward me…

Nizar Qabbani

Did fate brought us together again? If so can we make this work? I’ll damn all the things that tries to keep us apart. You will know on my side I’ll love fearlessly and will never give up. If this life doesn’t give us a chance, then I pray to God to give us a better chance again be it in this life or the next and whatever may come after.

Yours,
Sincerely,
& Forever.